I wish I was a narcissist but found out it takes some effort and determination in becoming so..!!so...now..what do i become...??? was this question really getting into me??? why is there a lots of exclamations mark and question marks in my sentences??..am i just doing to attract the attention or is it tht its just mundanely happening...??what am i actually doing now? reading some status messages in facebook...!! oh i can see some patriotic messages....wishing ..demanding...to do something for the country.....i can see the comments too....lots of blames...!! landing their ass on some exquisite places...and talking about the poverty and unemployment ..!!huh!!! should i start "talking" the same way too?????nope...i too fall into the same category..!! i know that..at least i dont open my mouth...!!
where am i again?? lost...!!?? as usual...!! oh i see ...some meg's prediction ....ya rt..it predicts "wht colour "shit"..m gonna "shit" tomorrow morning..!! something pops out in the notification......"on this day "god" wants u to knw..happiness lies within...oh! not again...happiness topic n me...!! .....I sound as if my wife has just divorced me ....i plug in some floyd again..."and u run and u run to catch up with the sun but it's sinking"...!!i link this line with the happening of my life ...changes my expressions..i look SAtisfied...! like some "horoscope" mentioning ..i've got a chance to study abroad"..!! utter bullshit..!!suddenly " a situation arise"...my blood in the head veins seem to flow less..!! and i plan to stop my nothingness...!! coz my head seem to take another topic...i need to complete something....but tht something never seem to finish...!! as my "indecisiveness" upholds..!!!
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
peace..!!
As i stroll my mind around , just to experience the vibes of the momentary instance..!! it turns nostalgic ..!!..! i sway my head , to try to avoid the consequences of being "the same"....!,! it recoiled,forcing it hard to continue it's path ,! the path where "i", moulded myself to become someone else, i couldnt break myself open ,as i was cemented with strong obscure ingredients..!! ..!!
And the laughter continues..,!! with some elated ,some confounded and some "charity"...gestures ..!!
A loving heart , a prurient mind and a confused soul !!!..."sometimes"/"always" interrupts the situation we call "reality"..!!. we cant always let go the natural "simplicity","humbleness" of being ourselves , so we fight within the internal frames of our mind,trying to exract the conclusion ,infact secretes a momentary literature , words like "philosophy","think","retrospect","insane",psycho","understand"...etc..!!!
When "u" absolutely dont have a clue of wht has happened, and u loose "something"..!!! , "u" loose "peace of mind"...!!! , a genuine calmness inside u , and crazyness ozzes ..!!
As we get addicted to "switching", of being normal...!!! ,we start comparing ourself with the "ultra normal" state we reach after the intake of "oh!! the exams are over!!(haha,just for example)"..!! substance..!! we love the comparison n keep up with the pace, until the situation of " strolling of the mind.." arrives..!!!
As we devise ourself to confront the versatile situations, theres always the "silence" to counter-attack the regularity and finishes it with a pause.
And the laughter continues..,!! with some elated ,some confounded and some "charity"...gestures ..!!
A loving heart , a prurient mind and a confused soul !!!..."sometimes"/"always" interrupts the situation we call "reality"..!!. we cant always let go the natural "simplicity","humbleness" of being ourselves , so we fight within the internal frames of our mind,trying to exract the conclusion ,infact secretes a momentary literature , words like "philosophy","think","retrospect","insane",psycho","understand"...etc..!!!
When "u" absolutely dont have a clue of wht has happened, and u loose "something"..!!! , "u" loose "peace of mind"...!!! , a genuine calmness inside u , and crazyness ozzes ..!!
As we get addicted to "switching", of being normal...!!! ,we start comparing ourself with the "ultra normal" state we reach after the intake of "oh!! the exams are over!!(haha,just for example)"..!! substance..!! we love the comparison n keep up with the pace, until the situation of " strolling of the mind.." arrives..!!!
As we devise ourself to confront the versatile situations, theres always the "silence" to counter-attack the regularity and finishes it with a pause.
Monday, March 30, 2009
WEIRD..!
grey clusters of veins
squelched in brain
erupting a word
gone in vain
immoratal dreamz all gone insane
screaming words and no ears to lend
tear drops and a serene smile washed by rain
revolving earth and running time,
but all people look the same
fading past along with a pretending fame
a lonely burning candle,
still heals the pain............
squelched in brain
erupting a word
gone in vain
immoratal dreamz all gone insane
screaming words and no ears to lend
tear drops and a serene smile washed by rain
revolving earth and running time,
but all people look the same
fading past along with a pretending fame
a lonely burning candle,
still heals the pain............
Monday, March 12, 2007
ha ha !! ma stiif neck let's say...
groovy beats swelling infinitely
ravaging the silence ,
mending those inaudible pain ,
unchaining those ecstatic moods......
happy feats dancing into the tunes of those mellifluous, honeyed beats , entirely exhilarated
seeing those dust fly by with those hands held up high,
the scattered coloured beam gauging the heart beats of many unknows....
(i wrote this jus after da concert here...wid ma STIFF NECK ...n ma STIFF fingers...)
ravaging the silence ,
mending those inaudible pain ,
unchaining those ecstatic moods......
happy feats dancing into the tunes of those mellifluous, honeyed beats , entirely exhilarated
seeing those dust fly by with those hands held up high,
the scattered coloured beam gauging the heart beats of many unknows....
(i wrote this jus after da concert here...wid ma STIFF NECK ...n ma STIFF fingers...)
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